It was today that I decided to create a blog and expose my thoughts. I mean, to be honest, I say too much to everyone anyway. I feel like I've been going through bullshit my entire 20's and it's always been because of me.
Who else can I rightfully blame? I'm far from perfect. Looking back at my life I can honestly say it's been a rollercoaster. I used to run away from everything good for me towards everything not so good; all while being the most cowardly person you'd ever meet. I fear everything as if I wasn't raised in the church to know what He hasn't given us the spirit of. If it's something I want, I'm at it until I get it, or until it really proves me wrong.
I can honestly say that I've learned from my mistakes now and I'm healing. It took four pending felony charges, a broken heart, a couple abortions, and emotional trauma...but I learned. I don't know whether to consider myself abstinent or celibate, but I no longer have interest in having sex or emotional attachment to anyone but my family. This will take some time, but it will change. I'm in the process of fixing and loving me. I recently prioritized watching my surroundings and THIS is how I'm welcoming in 2022.
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